Save my Butt!!

Ok, so I finally committed to a diet...if you know me, you know thats a big deal. Now that I have come to finally love my body in allllllllll of its glory lol it took alot for me to admit that i could be healthier. I am not trying to be skinny, in any form of the word, but I do want to live to see my grandkids and greatgrands.

Now, I love my curves, except for maybe one lol but Its my weight that bothers me. And I know muscle weighs more than fat and Im built differently than other women in my weight range, but it really bothers me when someone who, I know is bigger than me physically, says that they weigh 30 sometimes 50 lbs less than I do!!

Granted they may be lying, lol but it irks my nerves. I am not ashamed to say I weigh over 200 lobs, its obvious.But there was a time when I was under that number that so many women fear. I didnt have the curves I have now, my breasts were smaller, my butt was flatter, but I had a relatively flat stomach, muscular legs, and muscle butt lol Now the goal is to get back under 200 or at least be able to wave to it lol and still keep my butt and boobs....hmmmmmm!!

Well, the youth ministry at the church has challenged the adults to a biggest loser style challenge. The challenge started on memorial day weekend and will last until labor day weekend. I've already lost 6 lbs, (even though I gained 2 back somewhere along the line) Im starting to walk more again. I drink hot lemon water all day, green tea and sweet tea as a treat. I cut way back on the red meat, juice and soda. Including Pepsi!!! thats is the hardest thing to give up for me. I have been in such a funk, had attitudes that were unbelieveable and so wound up that i scared myself! lol but its all for a good cause, hopefully.

If nothing else, if i dont lose anymore than these 6 (i mean 4) lbs, I know that i have the will power that ive never had before. and that will make it all worth it...

Ill try to keep you guys updated with my progress.....when im not throwing kids around :D

Peace!

I am the dot, dot, dot (from lala's blog)

one of my oldest friends shared this with me the other day and I havent stopped thinking about it since. Unfortunately this is the story of my life.....it may be your story too, so dont judge! But I wanted to share this. The sista who wrote it has a blog listed (http://blogs.brokenstyle.com/lala/) so check out her other stuff too, (dont forget to check me out too!! http://divadlux.blogspot.com/) enjoy!



i am the dot, dot, dot

the eternal placeholder

the lips you run to when hers aren’t close enough
the dotted line after the colon

the friend.

i am where there riverbed ends

the surrogate

the almost doesn’t count
the better luck next time

the fool
(everybody plays me)

the tool
(everybody use me)

the stool
(everybody stand on me)

to get high enough to reach someone else’s expectations

the runner up
- just in case she isn’t competent enough to keep her position

the fall back
the could’ve been
the maybe.

i am the two and a possible

the sidekick
the buddy
the sister

i am the shoulda’ coulda’ woulda’
…but missed it

i am the table for one
the last nite really was fun

i am the money on the nightstand

the bird in the other hand

the secret
longing to be told

the lust,
and never the love

the afterthought.

i am the corner of your heart
wishing i was part of your life

i am the girlfriend
…and not the wife

the fool
(everybody plays me)

the tool
(everybody use me)

the stool
(everybody stand on me)

to get high enough to reach someone else’s expectation

- waiting for someone to meet mine.

lala (c)2009 lalalounge.net